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(no subject) [Feb. 19th, 2006|08:52 pm]
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When I started cutting in 6th or 7th grade (I finished school last year and I'm starting college in the fall, just to give you all an idea how long I've been cutting). I'd cut for depression. Then I realized the sort of drug-like high I got from it and it kind of turned me on. It scared me so I stopped and resorted to drugs and drinking. Soon that wasn't enough so I picked up bruning. Burning just wasn't the same as cutting so I quit. I picked up cutting again (I quit drinking and drugs). My tool of choice at first was the metal tip of an expensive mechanical pencil, soon I upgraded to an exacto knife blade, then broken glass, then strait razors, then broken glass and now I'm using an exacto again. I use to cut the inside of my wrists and forearms but now I cut the insides of my thighs. It turns me on more. I like to give blood more than I like to drink it I guess. I love kissing a guy or girl after they've been drinking my blood. The metalic taste lingering on their tounge. I use to feel guilty about these feelings and then I'd cut more as to punish myself but in the end I'd just get more turned on. Quite funny actually, I mean when the punishment is no longer a punishment but something else all together. I just wanted to share a very short version of my story to let you all get to know me a bit better, and to hopefully make some new friends.
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(no subject) [Feb. 17th, 2006|09:01 am]
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1.Name? Katie
2.Age? 17
3.How long have you been cutting? 2 years
4.Why are you joining (other than just the fact you lust for blood)? I want to meet people with the same interest as me to talk, share experiences, ect.
5.a picture of yourself would be nice, but opptional
well if you have a myspace, view my pictures
6.what kinda of music are you into? heavy metal, post hardcore, rockabilly, jazz, ska
7.what "type" or person do you consider yourself? I consider myself...well, myself. Others say I'm "hella metal" so usually i just go with that.
8. Are you open minded? Of course.
1.female/male? Female
2.sexual preference? I'm straight.
3.experience with blood drinking? Only my own.
4.Have you ever been in love? No
5.Do you plan on getting to know those in this community? Yes please!
1.gays/lesbians/bis I believe love is love. If they are the same gender, that's just as good.
2.love Love is something that I haven't felt before and that people can be naive towards. Yet if they feel it's love, then I guess it's love. It's only afterwards will they realize if it was love or just them.
3.politics I don't like to get myself into that, but I was raised by a republican so I have a lot of those views however, I jump around in opinions.
4.poetry Poetry is beautiful. I used to write when I was younger, but I didn't have the talent to create the art out of words.
5.emo I don't like the music but I don't hold it against people who do, however I'm not very fond of the "emo" people.
6.punk Punk is exciting. Being into real hardcore, it brings me close to that genre and scene. It's fast, crazy, yet unified. Punks tend to get along with hardcore kids because of the same belief in unity. I enjoy it.
7.goth Goth...I don't like the style or the music.
8.marriage (between oppisite sex) I will, eventually. But I don't like how many people jump into marriages, their relationships fall apart.
9.marriage (between same sex) Like I said above, love is love. I support it all the way.
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(no subject) [Feb. 16th, 2006|08:14 pm]
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1.Name? Steph
2.Age? 18 (19 next month)
3.How long have you been cutting? Since I was 11 or 12.
4.Why are you joining (other than just the fact you lust for blood)? I'm hoping to make new friends. I have a lack of friends on this journal.
5.a picture of yourself would be nice, but opptional sorry. None at the moment.
6.what kinda of music are you into? Almost anything except country and a slect few bands that annoy me.
7.what "type" or person do you consider yourself? I consider myself just myself. I guess in highschool I was an outcast or the black "goth chick"
8. Are you open minded? I like to think so.
1.female/male? Female.
2.sexual preference? Bi-sexual.
3.experience with blood drinking? I use to kind of see this Masicost who let me cut him once and I use to let my friend Chris and my ex gf Bre bit me hard enough to bleed.
4.Have you ever been in love? Twice.
5.Do you plan on getting to know those in this community? Yeah.
1.gays/lesbians/bis I love all kinds of people.
2.love Love is pain.
3.politics Don't get me started on politics.
4.poetry I've been known to write a poem or 10, I haven't written much in awhile though.
5.emo Sometimes I'm told I'm a little too emo.
6.punk I don't have much experience with real punk people. My bestfriend's baby's dady is punk though.
7.goth I love pretty goth boys.
8.marriage (between oppisite sex) Love is love.
9.marriage (between same sex)People should be able to marry whoever they love no matter what.
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n00b aplication [Jul. 5th, 2005|08:35 pm]
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[Current Music |I'm Not Ok (I Promise)- My Chemical Romance]

1.Name? Alexa Raven (vampiric name: Raven Blood)
2.Age? 19
3.How long have you been cutting? since 8/10/2003
4.Why are you joining (other than just the fact you lust for blood)? meeting people like me
5.a picture of yourself would be nice, but opptional Image hosted by Photobucket.com
6.what kinda of music are you into? punk, emo, alternative, metal, death metal, heavy metal
7.what "type" or person do you consider yourself? somewhat of a goth and emo
8. Are you open minded? yes
1.female/male? female
2.sexual preference? bi
3.experience with blood drinking? yes, many times
4.Have you ever been in love? yes
5.Do you plan on getting to know those in this community? yes
1.gays/lesbians/bis all
2.love i found it
3.politics don't like to talk about it much
4.poetry love to write it
5.emo wanna meet them and I am one
6.punk wanna meet them.... and I am one... kinda
7.goth Love them
8.marriage (between oppisite sex) OK
9.marriage (between same sex) Lot better
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Moving. =[ [Jun. 10th, 2005|04:46 pm]
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[Current Mood |crushedcrushed]
[Current Music |Cicada[Backwoods]]

Does anyone here live in Minnesota? Because we may be moving there...it's going to tear me apart, and if I know someone there, well it might, MIGHT make it a tad easier for me. [Doubt it.]

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(no subject) [Jun. 2nd, 2005|10:01 pm]
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ok here it goes...
1.Name? Kim

2.Age? um feeling pretty old >.< 30 something

3.How long have you been cutting? about 17 yrs

4.Why are you joining (other than just the fact you lust for blood)? besides my love for blood ,well because its nice to have a place to go and vent or just talk about something that interests you without judgin you

5.a picture of yourself would be nice, but opptional my lj icon is me

6.what kinda of music are you into?i listen to everything mostly alternative and punk

7.what "type" or person do you consider yourself?different ..misunderstoop. im a freak and im proud

8. Are you open minded? i would have to say yes

1.female/male? im a female (if thats what this means )

2.sexual preference? yes as often as i can =x sorry bad joke . im currently in a straight realationship but am bi

3.experience with blood drinking? i enjoy it very much and am very lucky to have a bf who feeds my needs

4.Have you ever been in love? yes a few times

5.Do you plan on getting to know those in this community? of course
1.gays/lesbians/bis =its all wonderful

2.love = can be a wonderful and beautiful thing or it can be a living a hell

3.politics =love to have heated arguments about it

4.poetry= love poetry reading and writting it

5.emo= i can take it or leave it

6.punk= like it

7.goth= its a way of life

8.marriage (between oppisite sex)=all for it

9.marriage (between same sex)= altho i am going through a divorce think marriage is the root of all hell i think it can be a great thing if its founded on love
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meow [Apr. 1st, 2005|07:06 pm]
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[Current Music |cartoons and music on my computer]


Blood lovers and lusters.. mmm..mmm..mmmm sexi :0)

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(no subject) [Apr. 24th, 2005|02:24 pm]
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[Current Mood |apatheticapathetic]
[Current Music |Evanescence [Taking Over Me]]

I guess I'm doing okay...I mean...I haven't cut in a few days. I just feel like I should. I feel like I deserve the pain of it. I feel like I'm suppose to bleed, for being so stupid and everything all the time.

My best friend from middle school, who had moved away, has moved back. Yeah, this seems good right? Wrong. Back in middle school she made my two close friends and me extremly depressed with a lot of shit. It seemed like she always wanted there to be drama between us. So when she got taken from her dad and went to live with her mom, my close friends and I slowly got our lives back together, piece by piece. We thought we were doing good. I mean sure, we still had some problems, but we didn't haver her there to create more drama. Well now she is back...and un-changed. At first we were all excited that she was back, thinking she had changed, and that we would all be happy. Well she has managed to eff some more up. A couple nights ago one of my close friends I mentioned before, the friend that moved back, and I went out to see our friend DJ. My friend that came back decided it was a date between her and I, even though I have no interest in her. She kept hanging on me and everything, until I decided it was enough. So my other friend, that happened to be there also, and I decided we would pretend we were together so that she would leave us alone. You see, she was hitting on her too. Anyway...the point is, she is back and so is the drama. I don't know if I can take it now... Not right now... Not with my family problems... Not with my school shit... Not with my problems... I just can't take her lies, and her drama, and all of her shit.

My parents seem to have let up today on yelling at me... I'm sure it won't last long... At least I will have one free day of being told I'm worthless. My sister seems to want to kill me though. All she does is scream and mess with my cats. I really don't like that she is so young. One of my cats is pregnant, and I keep thinking she is going to kill the babies.

I've not done anything this weekend, and I feel like shit. Not in a sick way, just because I'm lazy. I feel like I should be doing something productive...but I'm not...It's useless...Whatever...

Kill me? Please?

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(no subject) [Mar. 18th, 2005|09:20 am]
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[Current Mood |melancholymelancholy]
[Current Music |The Dresden Dolls --- The Perfect Fit]

1.Name? Lauren H.
2.Age? 17
3.How long have you been cutting? I think I started when I was twelve. I may not be able to tell you the exact age but I can tell you exactly how the wonderful experience went.
4.Why are you joining (other than just the fact you lust for blood)? I am joining because I need to find someone who won't comdemn me lust for the pain and release. My boyfriend won't let me cut... he just doesn't understand.
5.A picture of yourself would be nice, but opptional I'll put a picture up as soon as I can. I am supposed to be getting some fairly soon. Until then:
I have wavy blond/brown hair with natural highlights, bluegreen eyes, extremely pale skin, I am 5'3" and weight 10 lbs.
6.What kinda of music are you into? I listen to alot of music but mostly indutrial, metal, indie, jazz, and classical
7.what "type" or person do you consider yourself? If you really want to know, I am arrogant, vain, materialistic, and shallow (sometimes) to name a few.
8.Are you open minded? About what? I usually am. I am very much a German though and stubborn sometimes.
1.female/male? I am a girl. I think... well, last I knew.
2.sexual preference? I swing either way
3.experience with blood drinking? Ah me, I find it one of the most incredibly erotic things one can do. I love blood. What it is and what it stands for.
4.Have you ever been in love? Yes, and I am right now, though it isn't going so well lately between my boy and I
5.Do you plan on getting to know those in this community? If they want to get to know me I am fine with that.
1.gays/lesbians/bis It makes no matter to me whether you are gay, straight, or bisexual. I am bisexual myself and I don't understand why someone would descriminate based upon someones sexual prefrence. It makes no sense.
2.love I don't feel able to make an unbiased statement on it right now. I am having some serious trouble with my boyfriend ( who I do love more than anyone can imagine). So, it is hard for me to speak on this matter. My apologies.
3.politics I am very liberal, very much against war and despise the American government.
4.poetry When poetry is good, it can be beautiful. I personally can't write poetry that I am satisfied wtih so I have stopped trying. I found a new favorite poem last night, though.
5.emo They sort of amuse me. I do like a bit of emo music, but it isn't because it is "emo". I like it because someone of the songs have really good lyrics and are nice and calming. The "emo" people annoy me sometimes though because it seems like the glorify depression. I have been depressed for years now and I can't see why anyone would want to glorify it... it is bothersome.
6.punk *shrugs* I have a few casual friends that are punkers, but most of them do drugs and really aren't that intelligent. It is sort of a shame because they are very nice people and fun to be around.
7.goth I find the gothi culture to be very beautiful. I find death beautiful, and agree and try to uphold alot of the "goth" ideals, though I am not truely goth myself. I still like rainbows. Heh. I suppose I am "gothesque" though.
8.marriage (between oppisite sex) If you love one another, go for it. It is their decision, not mine. Though, personally it seems like sex life goes down hill once the honeymoon is over. I don't know if I would want to get married because of that.
9.marriage (between same sex) See above.
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One more I wrote, thanks to some religious people... [Feb. 25th, 2005|07:57 am]
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Mass Murder Of The Second Coming Pt. 1

Christ looked at me, with fire in his eyes
He cast me from Heaven
A lost cause covered in sin
And as i walked through the fire and ashes
His Majesty took my hand
He showwed me great wonders
That would spread throughout the land
A total state of chaos would be born with all my sins
A whole world destroyed with a wave of a hand
Darkness would consume them
All innocent and so pure
A bright world to wreak havok
A bright world to destroy
It would rain for decades
And their blood would stain their eyes
Red the world would be painted
As i cut them from their lives
And now as they know the end is near
They pray to their worthless God
They pray out of fear
They will confess all their sins
And try to become pure
The rain that poured down upon them
Soon would turn to their tainted blood
Christ i had killed for the higher One
And now that there is murder and chaos
The world has become perfect
There is no sin, only selfish choices
We have burnt the churches
And created our own house of worship
Their Christ-like figures have died
And from their blood i drink
We take in his so-called power
And use it to slaughter the weak
This world was built for the strongest
And only the strong shall remain
Thoses who are defiant will parish by his will
The harmony we shall live in
When they give their life to Him
He will take care of all His children
As their former God once did
The old way was a failure
Just a big f*cking mistake

P.s. sorry if theres any misspellings.

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